Monday, July 25, 2005
God is good is an understandment. You might not agree with me for now, yet surely the goodness of God will flow into your life, when you least expect it...few hours ago, I rang sister Irene, she bombarded me with her miracle experience. "Godwyn, 3 days ago I woke up and feel peace. My panic attack is gone!...it is a miracle..."
What is the big deal? Those who experience panic attacks, it is a big deal as you are completely helpless when a panic episode overcome you. For 14 days, sister Irene could not even sleep, from time to time, I called her and prayed with her, believing God's promises. Her testimony is just one of the very few I came across for the past 11 days...
Many shared with me about how they struggled out of depression with Jesus's grace. It seems to be a norm for us to think, depression command no physical damage, as compared to terminal illness such as cardiac arrest or AIDS or cancer...worst so, many refuse to seek treatment as when one consult a psychiatrist, others might quickly labelled him/her as suffering from Psychosis. In short, Mad! Look again at the rising suicide rates and age, it is alarming...
Don't get me wrong, I believe in Divine Healing and all our illness been taken away by Jesus with every stripes he bore 2000 years ago. I would just like to point out, Jesus wore the crown of torns, for your depression, manic attacks, panic episodes, delusion, paranoia ALL, taken away on the perfect cross. Why should we consult a physician then? Personally, I believe from what I had been taught, when I am unwell and there is a need to seek medical aids, I pray and give thanks for Jesus's wisdom to be imparted on the doctor. That does not mean I give up faith for science, what is faith then?
On early hours of 23rd July, my mind went blank with fear and pain. I had no specific idea what struck me but I knew it was both depression and an escalated panic episode. I had been working long hours over the weeks challenging every rocks that rolled onto me, tossing and multi-tasking. In desperation, I drew out a sermon by Pastor Prince, "Why you can expect good things to happen to you" and forcefully focus on his words from the Lord. In the midst of the listening to the sermon, when Pastor Prince address the ability of supernatural healing by our own hands, I pronounced "Amen!" putting my hand on my heart and just believe. I felt a 'burning' sensation, instantly the agony left me...May God be the Glory...
The night was not just another episode of miracle healing that I experienced and witnessed, it was a night of spiritual learning...The value of "Positive Expectancy"...without 'hope', how 'faith' comes about? Why is it important for us to hope? What is the difference between our Worldly "Fat Hope" and "Bible Hope"? Bible Hope is what Jesus deserved when Jesus was nailed for us on the cross. On that cross, Jesus not only took away our sins, he cut a convenant for us to receive blessing from our Father in Heaven.
Often we think we do not deserve this and that...yet Jesus did deserve it didn't he? If Jesus deserve it, you deserve it! That is Bible hope, we deserved it because God loves us! We expect good things to happen not because we deserve it, because the God we serve is a Big God, who loves us heaps! For once, I forgot the positive expectation of God's blessing...
We 'Believe the promise of God, All things work together for good' the 'all things' include stress and our daily problems. 'Problems' are bread to make us strong. Just like when I spoke to sister Irene, she justified that though it was miserable 14 days of suffering, yet she came out of it stronger than before. "Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have obtained our introduction by faith into his grace in which we stand; we exult in hope of the glory of God. And not only this, but we also exultin our tribulations, knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance and perseverance, proven character, hope ; and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us." Romans 5: 1-5
In Isaiah 54, God teaches us about rejoicing with our hope and faith materializing with our positive expectation of the future, it is merely receiving what Jesus deserve! Whatever you need in your life, rejoice and prepare for your blessing! Isaish 54:
"Shout for joy, O Barren one, you who have borne no child; break forth into joyful shouting and cry aloud, you who have not travailed; For sons of the desolate one will be more numerous..." - 'Barren' is not just about offispring, it is about ANY provision we need in our life. Let us rejoice before we recieve it!
"Enlarge the place of your tent; Stretch out the curtains of your dewelling spare not! Lengthen your cords And strengthen your pegs. For you will spread abroad to the right and to the left..." - thus we hope, with our positive thinking, believing God will fill us with ALL our needs in life! How do we receive if we do not even 'enlarge' our tent to fill it? As for an example, being a consultant trainee in any trade, if we keep believing we are just a trainee, we act like a trainee, dress like a trainee, work with a trainee attitude's hope, how does our faith comes in with God's blessing?
"Okie, I think Big! What IF?..."Fear not, for you will not be put to shame; And do not feel humiliated, for you will not be disgraced; But you will forget the shame of your youth..." - This is God's promise, we will not be put to shame! We will not be disappointed! Let us first "Forget the shame" as what we asked is blessed because of the perfect work Jesus did for us at the cross! We are receiving what Jesus's deserve!
Put away our "conscience" where Adam partake the fruit of good and evil. Prepare for your blessing and receive it in Jesus name. This is positive expectancy...I am expanding my tent...are you?