O, how foolish I was until one day He really really spoke to me during one of my private time with Him. He spoke one sentence that cast all my worries out of my mind, (perfect love cast out fears) He said, "Don't you know that I love them MUCH MORE than you love them?" I was stunned in His presence, I was trembling when I heard my Abba's heart.
Yes, He personally loves them more than I do. I love them, but I am not omnipresent. He loves them, He can be right there they are, while they need help the most. It is not my hand that can extend back to China to save them out of their struggles but His.
Cut the story short, mom was saved last year while she was in Singapore in the span of 9 days, and she is coming here for a month soon. and from the conversations I have with my mom over phones, my dad is now more care-free for any reason that she doesn't know (BIG GRIN), and they even have conversation concerning Jesus and God a lot of times,(HALLELUJAH).
And God was telling me, don't even have an impression that you are saved, and they are not, called them the saved of the Lord, and see them worship in the church in the Spirit. It is impossible for you, but nothing is impossible for Me. And I was delivered from this area of fear of life ever since.
God is still faithfully working in the out and through my life. And I know you understand what I mean.
He is our pillar of cloud of strength when we are weak.
He is our pillar of fire to keep us warm.
He is our only solution for all our needs.
And guess what?
He is in action.. :)